My apologies, I hadn't realized I did not make it clear I accepted your initial apology that evening. In answer to your question, what I view differently is myself.
I did consider the harm of my choices. It is why I wanted to remove myself from the equation. If I am not a part of it I could cause him no harm. I hadn't factored in that he would care enough to be hurt, which was a poor miscalculation.
I know you do. You love him, and he loves you. You make him happy. I have always respected this.
It hurt him to learn my feelings about you. I tried to change, and failed miserably. In the end I felt my choice was the optimal solution: I would leave, and you would remain with him.
I still feel like this is the optimal solution.
I do not deserve a place in your family, but just as I am allowed to make the choice to leave, so too are they allowed to make the choice not to let me.
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I did consider the harm of my choices. It is why I wanted to remove myself from the equation. If I am not a part of it I could cause him no harm. I hadn't factored in that he would care enough to be hurt, which was a poor miscalculation.
I know you do. You love him, and he loves you. You make him happy. I have always respected this.
It hurt him to learn my feelings about you. I tried to change, and failed miserably. In the end I felt my choice was the optimal solution: I would leave, and you would remain with him.
I still feel like this is the optimal solution.
I do not deserve a place in your family, but just as I am allowed to make the choice to leave, so too are they allowed to make the choice not to let me.